My Dream

Ok so this is officially the first blog I have ever written so I apologize in advance if it sounds sketchy. Last night I had the strangest dream. Of course I have had some interesting ones in past however, this particular dream had my mind wondering the whole entire day what it could possibly mean. I'm not quite sure if its a good dream or a bad dream overall I am just very confuse and want to know why I dreamed about something like this. By the way I dont consider myself a catholic even though I was raised being one. I do believe that there is a god and I pray mostly every night, and as for organized religion... I refrain from either condeming or praising one religion over another whole-scale. Anyway my dream was a very short one so it goes like this... I was sitting inside a catholic church, before the mass started the priest asked me to come up to the altar. Without knowing why he wanted me to join him I asked my mother who was right next to me what was going on. When I got up from the wooden bench that I was sitting on I slowly started to fly up to the ceiling. I remember I was wearing a pink dress and everyone that was in the church witnessing this was in shock of what was going on. I didn't understand what was happening to me but surprisingly I didn't panic. When I came down from the mid air all the people gathered around me and asked what God looks like? I responded and said he looks like that while pointing at the infamous portrait of God that we see everywhere. The funny part is while I was flying up in the air I didn't see God. I did some research and found this:
Each of us has a different and special relationship with God. Indeed, each of us has a different understanding & interpretation of the concept of God. And so, dreaming of God can mean many things to many different people. Ultimately your own heart determines the meaning in your mind. However, a some symbolic meanings when we dream of God include:
Wanting a closer connection with the divine Feeling confident in a situation Seeking answers in your life Seeking deeper spiritual connection Wanting to discover the meaning behind a secret Wanting a burden to be removed in your life Wanting to feel lighter, more carefree Wanting to be understood Wanting to feel more powerful.

Society...

I'm sitting in my hotel room pissed of as ever. I just got back from the gym and I am tired and very hungry! I am in the Philippines (for a vacation) Now you have to remember this is a 3rd world country everything works a lot different from how it is back home, so keep that in mind as you continue to read. You will have a better understanding if you have traveled outside the U.S. So today on my way home I was waiting at a Taxi stand, the line was about a mile long “no really” a MILE perhaps longer. Just by walking further and further down the line trying to find the end of it, I was already getting pretty frustrated. Finally as I waited patiently this man comes out of nowhere and cuts right in front of me. He stood there as if it was nothing. So I tapped him and politely asked him to go to the end of the line which was about another mile long from where I was standing. He then responded trying to act dumb saying that he had been standing there. I told him to move or else I will call security, he then proceeded behind me. I turned around and informed him once “AGAIN” that he needed to go to the end of the line because it wouldn’t be fair to the other people who have been waiting for hours and hours before him. Not to mention there were many young children waiting with their parents as well. The man didn’t even budge so I’m thinking in my head how can this man have no sympathy. The people who were in front and the back of me saw what this man just did and no one bothered to say one word to him they ignored his behavior. As he stood there he was loudly talking shit in Tagalog which is a “Philippine language. Not knowing that I can perfectly understand everything that was coming out of his mouth. He assumed this because I was speaking in English. By the way I can understand but I can’t speak it very well. Some of things he was saying was he did me a favor by letting me go (Bitch you didn’t do me a favor, I’ve been waiting like everyone else) He also mentioned that I think that I am better than everyone else because I was speaking in English due to the fact that I am not from there. (I was speaking in English obviously because I can’t speak the native language, If I could I would have so that I can make sure he understands my point) He then all of the sudden pushes me so hard that I ended up bumping this person in front of me! By this time I was fucking heated I came back and tried to punch him right in his face then people came and tried to break the fight off. This Lady who was in line as well came out of nowhere flashing her I.D and started yelling at me with her crooked English saying that she can have me suspended to leave the country. I’m yelling back saying (Bitch I don’t give a fuck if you are the fucking President mind your own business you don’t know have a clue! This is my country how are you going to have me leave you dumb whore) and yet she assumed as well! Standing there in line with my adrenaline racing I was in disbelief that this man actually tried to fight me a (female). Adding insult to injury the security had the man and the woman cut to the very front of the line and got in a taxi in no time. 30 minutes has gone by still standing in line just for a fucking TAXI! I was thinking to myself this is some real bull shit! Instead of the security doing the right thing they did the complete opposite. Everyone else in line was giving me dirty looks as if I was the bad person, I felt like an Alien coming to earth. Anyway moral of the story I was just trying to do the right thing, and all these people had the nerve to be upset at me when they were also benefiting from the situation. I mean seriously forget the hour and half wait what I am really TRULY HURT by is what those people said and how they acted towards me. These are my people and sad to say I am completely disconcerted. By the way I was reading the newspaper and most of the ads for employment stated in plain bold letters “To apply for a position you have to be light skinned and tall”. Also another thing if you have light skin you are perceived as rich. I am so angry, sad and embarrased about this whole situation that I feel like vomiting...
Question 1: Environmental influences can it have a major impact on personality/mentality? Or is this just an excuse to simply act ignorant!
Question 2: Can you be racist amongst your own kind?

My first time.

Hello All...

So I have decided to finally join the blogging world.
Thanks to someone!

Anyway this is just an introduction I will start posting blogs when I get a handle on things.
Which will happen hopefully soon.

smooches...